Sunday, April 23, 2017

2016 Family Trip Vlog (part 1)

Hi. :)
First of all, I just wanted to say a HUGE thank you to everyone out there who showed love and support following my last post. Our family was blown away, and felt every single one of your prayers. You were all God's instruments in starting the healing process, so once again... THANK YOU!

The other day, I finally got to putting together the first vlog in our 2016 family trip series. 
I know, it took me a while! Normally I would have had time during school hours, in between grading and helping with homework, but this year I was teaching a 3rd grader, which requires a lot more attention than high school students! So now that our school year is finished... it is time to vlog. :)
Anyway, here it is. Part 1!

Monday, April 17, 2017

If you think I'm controlled... read this

I'm not the ranting type. I don't like to come on social media and rave about things that are upsetting me just to get it off my chest.

But today, I feel like I need to make a statement, so that people can stop misunderstanding, and know where I stand.
So, as the title suggests, if you are of the mindset that I am a victim that is trapped in a family of fourteen, emotionally held in my home against my will... then read on. If not, maybe you should skip this post, because what I am about to write may get a little, shall we say "loud".

This is not an emotionally charged post. I may not even hit the publish button, because I have debated with myself for days on whether or not this is the right thing to do. But the more days that went by, the more certain I became that there are people in my life that need to hear this. Instead of confronting one by one, I'm just going to write it, let it out, in one big generalized letter, because I do understand that there may be a wide variety of people that hold me in this regard.

Our family has gone through a rough time these past couple of weeks. By rough, I mean this is as low as it has ever gotten for us. I'm not going to go into any specifics, but I will say that rumours have been milling and swelling by people that we trusted, causing great damage to the leader of our home, and therefore causing a lot of damage to us all.

I have had to deal a lot with anger, because I have seen someone that I love being stabbed in the back over, and over again. I have seen hurt like never before, and I have seen the best of intentions being mistook for the worst, for no cause other than prejudice.

Some may think that attacking Dad wouldn't affect the rest of us, because we are, in some views, the "victims". But we are not. Every stab that has been directed on him has been felt by all of us.

Some people have it in their heads that I don't have an opinion.
I don't have a choice.
I don't have a voice.
Well, hear me roar. My voice is about to be heard.

I am twenty five years old, living in my parent's home, under my Dad's leadership.
This is not normal, I will acknowledge that.
But, just because it is not normal, doesn't mean it is not what I want.

This is a life that I have chosen. I am not trapped here, I love it here.
Within the protection of my family, I am able to live out my dreams in ways that the judgemental couldn't even imagine.
Some say "She isn't allowed to get a job", what the heck do you know? Maybe I do have a job that you don't know about, maybe I don't want a job. The point is STOP JUDGING.
Stop pointing fingers, stop spreading lies, just stop.
If you have a concern, talk to me or my family about it. I am not trapped, nor brain washed, so I will tell you the truth.

Through this hardship, we have come to see true colours. We have noticed the people that don't necessarily agree with us, but they respect us for who we are. For them, we are extremely grateful.
That is all we ask for really.
You won't see us doing hurtful things, and spreading rumours for the way that other people choose to live their lives, all we ask is for the same courtesy to be shown to us.

I will close out by saying this.
My family is a team. These past couple of weeks we have been up all hours of the night talking through what has happened and how we are going to deal with it.
Through this hardship we have drawn closer then we ever have before.
We are unstoppable, we will not be broken, TOGETHER we are strong.

Thursday, March 9, 2017

Dream List #61

This post is from my other blog "Awakening My Heart", I am re-posting because it tells the story of Dream List number sixty-one. 

On the heels of an adventure, I have lots to write about. This particular excursion was different than any that I have taken before. First it involved only four people, (which is about one fourth the people that I am used to traveling with). Second, we flew to our destination (which was a first for me!). Thirdly, I did not bring my camera, or post any blog posts telling about our trip (which was, I must admit... slightly freeing). Finally, it was a BUSY trip (which was albeit different, very awesome. :).
If you want to see pictures from the trip, I posted a few on instagram (@niferrose).

Lets start at the beginning, shall we?
I have flown on a small aircraft before, but never a jet. I was slightly nervous, only because I was afraid of being that person who needed the barf bag. Mostly, I was excited. I was excited to leave the world behind, rise above the clouds, and see creation from a different perspective.

I didn't have a window seat that first flight, but I was close enough to watch as we rose through layer upon layer of clouds. Once we completed our ascent, (which was accelerating and fascinating I might add... it takes little to entertain me ;) I put in my headphones and turned on my current favourite song "What a Beautiful Name" by Hillsong Worship. I glanced out the window, straining to see the earth beneath as the clouds gave way to patches of clear sky. When the words
"You have no rival. You have no equal. Now and forever God you reign. Your's is the kingdom. Your's is the glory. Your's is the name above all names."
sounded through my headphones, I understood more clearly than I ever have before.
From this new perspective that I was experiencing, my problems seemed smaller, my God seemed bigger, and my worries seemed less significant.
With thousands of miles whizzing by underneath, tears began rolling down my cheeks (the flight attendants were probably wondering what on earth happened to the poor girl sitting on row 17 :), as a feeling of peace swept over me.
The greatness of God, who made the sea, the earth, and all that in them is, became more real to me in that moment.

I found safety and comfort in the words "You have no rival. You have no equal. You reign.", because I could see it in the billowing clouds. The unmatched majesty.

So, my first flight was good. :)
The second flight I got a window seat (yay!), and left some forehead grease on it because I had my nose to the window most of the time. We were also behind the wing, which I liked better because I could see, not just feel, the direction we were turning. And found it humorous (like I said, it takes little to entertain me!) when the wings shook through turbulence. We had to fly around a storm also, which was cool. Them storm clouds. Wow.

So ya, two thumbs up for flying!

Thursday, January 19, 2017

Theeeey're Back!!

I looked back on yesterday's post and found that a bunch of the words I had written were missing. I was so tired when I posted, that I'm not surprised that it got messed up... but for those of you who were wondering why I ended it so abruptly, it was an accident. :) I did have more to say.

On another note.... Mom and Dad are back!!
They got home safe and sound this afternoon, and we are all happy. :)

These two basically sum up how we all are feeling right now. 

We spent this evening listening to stories of our parent's Mexican adventures, and getting all caught up on each other's lives. 

Thanks for partying with us!! I never regret capturing these moments, because I know that they won't last forever.

Peace out! :)

Wednesday, January 18, 2017

Snow Day

We decided that today would be a day of bare minimum. We did what needed to be done, and took the rest of the day off to enjoy the AMAZING weather, and relax.

The boys took the snowmobile out, and it was zipping around the yard all afternoon.

These three musketeers slid down their hill over, and over, and over, and... well, you get the picture.

Zach, of course, had to show them how it was done. Or in this case, how it is not done.

These smiles melt my heart. <3

Mikey has loved being able to play outside for the past couple of days! He is happy to be able to visit the horses, and he got his first snowmobile ride. :)
All he really wanted to do though, was walk on the snowdrifts, and slide down the snowbanks. I thought he would be so ready to be inside after our long walk around the yard, but he was mad that he had to go in the house. He is definitely still loving the outdoors, no matter how cold!

Tuesday, January 17, 2017

Family and Friends

Two more sleeps!!
We are all getting excited for you to come home to us!

Yesterday Zach opened his gift. He was pleased (to say the least!) with it! He played his bass all day, we got to listen to songs like "We are the Champions" and "You Really Got Me Now" over and over. :)

Meg came over and spent the day with us. We played ping pong, watched "Say Yes to the Dress", ate cheesecake blizzards, and had a birthday supper for Si Bear. 

It's supposed to be Zuma from Paw Patrol. I was to lazy to make black icing, so it looks kinda funny. :)

In the evening, we put the kiddos to bed, and went over to Josh and Becca's for girls night. We had lots of fun (as always)! I forgot to take pictures... so you'll just have to take my word for it. :)

Today we got school and cleaning done, we had some friends over for the supper and the evening, so I made some food for that. 

We played "Watch Your Mouth", and did some girl talk. :)

And that's that. :)
Enjoy your last day in Mexico!!